For my first post I wanted it to be more of an introduction, to talk about myself and why I’m starting this blog.
I started this new journey into the health and wellness field, not too long ago and it has been SO incredible.! I decided to create a blog to share the amazing information I will be learning with you. Also i think if i talk about nutrition, added sugar, and working out anymore my family might kick me out of the house, Ha-Ha! Plus i ALWAYS have people coming up to me asking me questions, or want to know how to make a certain recipe. I figured this would be a great way to get all of my built up energy out and hopefully answer any questions you might have about health and wellness. I’m so excited to take you on this journey with me!:)
So what made me want to get into health and wellness?
I was never happy with myself and my body. I would always, always! compare myself to other girls and would think, wow she looks really good, or say I wish I had her body. I was the type of girl to make my lock screen a picture of Adriana Lima after a Victoria secret fashion show and use it as motivation. I would look at myself in the mirror and completely pick myself apart. I would not wear things because I didn’t feel comfortable wearing it or I thought I didn’t look good in it. In reality though it wasn’t the clothes that looked bad it was all in my head. I had absolutely no self-confidence and it showed. I’ve come to realize it’s not how you look but how you feel about yourself and your confidence. Growing up I went through a lot, because of that I always wanted to make others happy and fit in. I wanted to do whatever I could for someone else and I was afraid of disappointment. Not once did I focus on myself. Going through all the things that I went through helped me to become stronger but more vulnerable, I never wanted to upset anyone and i could never say no, which ended up with me burning myself out.
Working out was something I was always into but I never fully devoted myself to doing. I would go through periods and times when I would go to the gym constantly but then it would narrow down to 2 days instead of 3 or once a week. Eventually it would turn into missing a gym session for a month, then one month would turn into three and so on. I was always intimidated by the gym. I never really knew what I was doing. I would run and do weights but I never knew if I was doing it right, so I wouldn’t go. I can’t even begin to tell you how many gyms I went to (I’m pretty sure I tried them all.) I did everything from the “miracle diet pill” to the waist trainers, I did the 3 day juice cleanse and saw no results.
I got a really good job that fell into my lap at 18. I started working their full time and I completely threw everything I had into it. After about a year of working there I decided to go to school as well while still working full-time. I never really put much thought into my health but with all the studying, going to bed late, and stress from work I developed really bad anxiety and my health became an issue. I never wanted to take medication, I always hated it, plus I was never good at remembering to take them. That’s when I decided to take matters into my own hands.
I decided to get back into the gym and to take my health seriously. The gym has become my personalized therapy. I get a whole hour completely to myself to just be alone with my thoughts and sweat out all the stress and negative energy and I love the way I feel afterwards. I realized that this is a lifetime commitment and you can’t just lose 10 pounds in 10 days, it takes baby steps and it’s a lot of work. I’ve become happier with myself and it may not be that I notice results right away but over time I do. The best feeling is when I’ll go to put a pair of jeans on and they’ll be too big. I want to continue learning and help others be happy with themselves, because being you and loving yourself is the best thing you could do.
XoXo – Lexi